i'm giving the wrong ideas
i'm hurting you
i'm causing your future to be ruined
i'm causing you to hurt
i'm causing misery
i'm murdering you
i'm murdering him
i'm nth
but a murderer

i cant love
i'm telling you now i cant
i don care you think i'm jus some psychologically unstable person or wad
i tell you i mean it
i cant

i don know wad's love
wad is it
i don deserve it anymore
i've hurt you
i've hurt him

i don know where my heart lies
i hold you close to me
but no one's going to enter
no one resides within it
at least not any dwellers of this cruel world
not you
not him
not anyone

"shermin died
she died in a car crash
the one i loved died
the one now is not real"

i agree.
i've died.
and i wont live anymore

if suicide brings me to heaven, Lord take me!
take me away before i hurt anyone anymore.
Lord, take me!